L I F E

life isn't always about the big things. It doesn't revolve around you or even other people but rather things. it knocks you down hard when you least expect it and makes you sad when you're the happiest. it makes you want something sooo bad that it hurts. it makes you not sleep late at night thinking random thoughts and living in your own world. life isn't about who you hang out with, who's the most popular or the prettiest. it isn't limited to the people around you. it's about someone who can intimidate you to a point of admiration. it's about finding your faults and correcting them before anyone else has the chance to do so. it's not about the guys you liked, the girls who bitched about you, or the people who couldn't care less. life is about waiting for that one day when it all falls together, when everything makes sense, when you realize the reason for all that shit, all that drama, all those tears, and all that laughter. it's not about how many rumors were spread or how many times you were asked out. it's not even about how rich you are. it's about the people who admire you for being YOU. it's about the crazy things you did that almost killed you but were worth it. it's about sitting in your room at 11pm and crying on the phone with your best friend. it's about laughing at a joke FIVE hours after it was told. life is when you do stuff that have nothing in them for you, when you do stuff because you know that that's what you're supposed to do. Life isn't about putting others before you but rather, with you. it's not about the blue skies and the shiny sun. it's about the rainbows that come after the cloudy skies and blurry rains. life is when you see a homeless person and it just kills you. it's not about just giving them money and walking away. life is about people who want to change the world. not the ones who merely declare so. life is about doing mistakes, having regrets, and learning your lessons but it's not about being risk-free for the fear of mistakes or pretending that you dont wish you could turn back time or repeating ur actions. life is when you look at the more simpler things and get lost in a world far far away. it's not about watching a movie and pretending you were in it. life isn't about dreaming. it's about making those dreams a reality. life isn't about giving yourself up for the people you love because if those people love you too, then they already have a part of you with them, always. life is not a straight tunnel with a light at the end. it's a crazy roller coaster and when it comes to an end, leaves you dizzy and faint but happy nonetheless. life is about the stupid things you do that leave you wondering what the hell you were thinking when you did them. life isn't about doing those things and then trying to cover them up. life is about the good times mostly but also the sad, exciting, mad, crazy, stupid, and unbelievable times. it's when the good blends into the bad, the crazy blends into the stupid, the love blends into the friendship and they all come together to form something called L I F E.

backkk!!!

whoa...its been a while since ive written in this thing...like way back at the time of finals...dec 16 was my mom's bday. and i baked a cake. and it didnt work out. so that career choice is out the window. and then christmas break was soooo absoloutely relaxing. mostly because i didnt do anything. and was super lazy and watched too many movies...like munna bhai mbbs which is my all time favorite..and the fiftieth time i watched it. i also watched heyy baby, om shanthi om, jab we met, Goal, aaja nachle, and Taare Zameen Par....yeaa im so up to date on hindi ones..but not really telugu...im not really digging tollywood anymore..weird..but have to say about taare zameen par...there's no other way to describe that movie: B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L. it made me cry like a baby...esp. the part where the kid wins the art competition and hugs aamir...omg sob sob tear cry....it's my favorite!!!!! i am soo in love with that movie.....and it made me fall in love with aamir khan....i never used to think about him much before..he was just a watever actor but not anymore...and to think that this was his directorial debut...cant wait for more!

and then january came. oh yea now its over too but....it was a weird month...just going with the flow sort of month. re-connected with hiba though which im pretty happy about....i spoke to her last sunday and then monday, tuesday, wednesday. i talked to her for three hours on wednesday and the only reason we stopped was because my phone ran out of battery. haha...she was my bff in sixth grade....it was fun though...but found out random stuff about her life that i really still cant get over...the stuff she told me. and also re-connected with Prashanth through Hiba....haha..she gave me his phone number...wow.....
i feel sick. maybe it was all the putnalu i ate. crap.
and math test tommorrow.
and history project due wednesday....why the hell did i get the worst group in the world? the dude in my group is like some japanese weirdo who refuses to talk to me. seriously. he just sits there while im assigning tasks. and the girl omg dont even get me started on stupid she is. i mean, she introduced herself to the whole class as "Princess"....so not kidding. this is high school not kindergarten. wtf. and she is the sort of person who doesnt do ANYTHING. at all. we're gonna get an F....i hate lifeeeee.....and i hate being in charge and doing all the work. hate it hate it. HATE IT. and now i have to go study some more. oh greatttt.

OMFG it's Hanisha